My state is open and aware and quiet.
The self I call “I” is a flat calm transparent natural boundary. Clear water is deep down, air is deep up.
The surface is almost colourless, without ripple or feature. It extends without horizon, but never leaves my sight.
In such a state I can ride and stay in balance during the time I am presented in the here and now with thoughts, feelings, distractions and discomfort.
Here, from my surface I offer this.
It is through my extraordinary journey of unanticipated heart awakening, around the time I began the regular practice of Biodanza in February 2013, that I know I can fully access healing. That, together with other understandings related to identification of ancient hurts and the resolution of previously unrecognised confusions, have granted my awareness of myself the opportunity of expansion and room in which to expand.
As I become self-aware, aware of the sanctity of the gift of life being lived and experienced more and more abundantly, so in equal measure I value the gift of life in relation to other living sentient beings.
What comes from living in such a new and richly jewelled life is a greater gratitude than I have ever known. It has far reaching implications on my remaining days of life. It is the ever-growing understanding that my life is not a discrete occurrence only in me. I am a pixel of humanity, and life is living through all things and beings, sentient and not sentient.
I am a happy ripple in a continuum of life. Life lives me as I live life.
Here’s the thing… Nothing has changed! Everything is utterly different and constantly completely new! The newness is “EveryNow”.
I begin my journey of exploration and discovery all over again from the very start every moment. Nothing existed in the previous instant of this awareness of existence to guide me to where I am. At any given moment, I look forward with barely containable excitement to the certainty of discoveries in the moment following.
I think of it like this. For the first fifty years I had been “Living to Love”, which is decorous, pretty, even beautiful, but it is an existence limited by inconsequential superficiality.
As my heart awakes and presents its face towards me to greet me, my heart starts “Loving to Live”.
This is the wholesome, plain and simple adoption of the richly textured reality of here and now, of “EveryNow”.
I am no longer secreted away in a place of safety of my own elaborate construction, but I go shining with gratitude and wonder at the mere fact of being vital and alive.
This is a state of being which is totally raw, exposed and vulnerable, but simultaneously full of living courage, and naked certainty.
Unencumbered by fear, my state of being can freely develop in its self-expression in the knowledge that it has its permanent residence in the secure environment of the heart’s pure and spectacular peace.
We are all capable of healing.
It’s about trusting love to come into close contact inside my most personal sacred space, and knowing that there, in that serene place of peace, I can heal.
We all just can
~ Love is present EveryNow