* Meditation on Awarenesses of Acceptance and Sufficiency *
These are awarenesses, resources of great value, that I am unlocking more and more on my Journey.
In seeking to embrace these, I am inspired by the example of a friend, whose startling quality of compassion in action and word has made me strive to understand the source, the better to emulate and assimilate this living spirit of compassion.
I see much value in the practice of Acceptance. Acceptance smoothly paves over the crevasses of treacherous impulse to blunder and bluff.
Daily, daily, I am in confrontation.
These are like great stirrings, as my hot indignation coming upon a selfish arrogant owner who is letting his dog “worry” swans.
Or these may be small stirrings: a person whose relationship to me commands respect, yet whose insistent manner rouses an aggressive response in me.
My responses stem from my self-regard blinkered from and blind to the life I share with people around me.
Acceptance is tearing away my blinkers. It’s me choosing to reach up to a panoramic viewpoint, consciously remaining exactly where I am, but at the same time giving myself the gift of the widest possible perspective at my location.
Once I arrive there – and I can choose to arrive in a flash – I am immediately reduced to my true size relative to “where I’m at”, and so I am released!
I am released from confrontation.
In my eyes, Acceptance is an unwavering loyal friend, as I walk hand in hand with my other awareness – Sufficiency.
If I calm myself and allow myself to come into closest connection with some external event, it can show me clearly and directly a total, utter and complete satisfaction – there can be no outside of ‘Sufficiency’.
Sufficiency is the time from the outside to the still-point centre of anything at all.
Sufficient is a living beating newborn heart, a rust encrusted pencil sharpener, the fury of blind rage reboant, the fractal three of clover, the pale blue dot seen through Saturn’s rings.
It suffices with a soundless extreme implosion of perfection not to know, not to have been present, never to have loved, never to be more than somewhat…
It is my awareness of Sufficiency which links me directly to the sum of all joys.
Any joy of any sort piercing the living moment is sufficient.
If I go out and about with a pocketful of forethought, and if I encounter a delight, I need not let it enter me and then pass me by.
For example, I may be kissed, and as I stop taking breath, I let myself feel all the breaths I have ever breathed contained in that kiss.
I do not think, “This is a kiss”. A kiss which knows itself to be a kiss will instantly self-destruct and disappear as completely as if it had never been.
The treasure awaiting my discovery in any experience is made suddenly visible by my inborn ability to allow its inherent quality of Sufficiency to overtake both it and me.
Every such wholly-lived experience is so naturally powerful just because it arrives in my life carrying its own tiny share of the cosmic Big Bang.
For me, that presumed Singularity is where time, space, matter, co-exist with love. This is where we came from and where we will return.
Sufficiency is the end contained in the beginning.
Sufficiency may be said to be without form, because it allows for all potential outcomes from void.
If I can only stop trying to dream, I can awake to find I am being dreamed by my dream.
The naked flesh of humility is clothed by sufficiency.
Awareness of Sufficiency has more gravity than its own mass! It is the cornerstone of Acceptance.
Acceptance extends, as does Humility, as does compassion, as does peace, indefinitely, infinitely.
Gratitude for these infinite sufficiencies!
~ Love is present E v e r yN o w