Do I need to escape from the ego? Should I try to subjugate it? Must I recognise my ego as primitive or maleficent in order to enable me to encounter my being in harmony and unity with the Universe?
I can say that my experience of awakened and often blissful consciousness has all my life been inclusive of all the factors at work.
I have always acknowledged and accepted my body and my mind in sickness or in health, in pleasure or in pain.
The “I” I call myself co-exists with my awareness of external and extraneous sensory input such as my hunger for peace, for food, for self-retrieval, as well as the many promptings in parallel of my mind’s primitive impulses to denigrate, downplay and deny the plenitude of my being, even when these lead me into anxiety, misery, violence, or indolence, self-harm and self-neglect.
These days, I begin to make distinctions between my gratitude for the acceptable reality of the support my ego gives to me and my gratitude for my ability to triage its continual background streaming and screamings that lets me identify and elevate the nourishment from out of the chatter.
Am I not fortunate to have arrived at such a fulcrum of balanced appreciation of life and in particular of my life in this rather strangely delightful all-encompassing continuum?
Yes, without doubt!
That awareness is the spring which refreshes me all of the time. That is the reason I have hope, the reason for me to go about, to search and to connect.
My heart reaches out in its search for life in all, all, all its forms.
I know that the search for life is not in the finding, nor in the failing to find. It is not in the choice of what life appears to present.
The search for life is in the lucid compassionate loving to live life.
Day by day, moment to delicious moment, that is exactly what keeps my heart beating and my soul flowering.
~ Love is present EveryNow