A DAY AT A TIME } ¹

A DAY AT A TIME
Look out, clutter free, uncomplicated
with faith, hope and love
towards the Dawn.
See the sense of season,
Sleep naked of reason.
~ Love is present EveryNow

A DAY AT A TIME } ²

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Look out, clutter free, uncomplicated..
with faith, hope and love..
Allow each dawn its full draught of surprise
This moment of Sunrise is thunderous
in its completeness.
It contains no axmixture of sunrise past.
Here is no inkling of what tomorrow’s light will be.
I allow myself to be blinded by the Love that is present EveryNow

Indebtedness – a table of spices set with humility

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I feel there is an indebtedness that arises in me from the recognition of successive blessings entering the arena of my life.
The tangible blessings start with my Mother and Father. Then the blessings in tiers associated, from the medical staff at my birth, fanning out to my family, our relatives, friends, the wider and ever wider civil society on whom my life continues to depend for support and continuation.
My repayment of what I owe is on a simple table in the arena. It is covered by a pale cloth. It is set with humility. And the rich rare spices I am invited to choose when cooking the dish of gratitude taste as sharp as the coming in of death at my little life’s end.
Any responsible and compassionate response to privileged heightened awareness of life in its very glory and in its quirky contrariness ought to be forged into a legacy for sharing.
What form this takes is all the choice I have.
At this time in mid 2018, I am working on my legacy, comprising ideas impressions memories and prayers shared on my blog and offered for whatever the future may see fit to do or not to do with them.
~ Love is present EveryNow

Under the influence

On Thadée Pilley’s indirect influence on my life.

My Father was a conference interpreter. Over thirty and more years he travelled four continents extensively for his work. He once counted 56 countries visited.

He recognised his privileged life, and it was a great joy to him to be able to give full reign to his boyish passion for exploration.

In the late 1940s, when on interpretation assignments in Europe, he would travel on the plane with his favourite form of instant transport – the collapsible Corgi scooter [photo].

In the more far away countries, once the day’s session was done, he didn’t hang around at the hotel as most people on business do. He’d hire a motor scooter, and dive deep, often at random, into town and countryside to discover places and things, and to meet people.

The Collapsible Corgi Scooter

He would regularly land himself into adventures. Most were quirky, weird and wonderful, some led him into real physical danger, injury even. His extractions formed part of the climax of his travellers tales.

He would enjoy retelling his incredible exploits over a meal at family get-togethers. He was an excellent raconteur and he loved holding ‘centre stage’.

Sadly, I remember only the outlines of a very few of my late Father’s famous stories.

In the heyday of the Cold War spy era, the best spy camera, as featured in classic fiction, was the German made Minox. My Dad carried a Minox in each pocket, one for black and white, one for colour, capacity 50 high quality 8mm photos on every film.

He was an amateur with a gift for subject, composition and timing. He accumulated a large collection of real, not tourist, travel images.

I am proud to be the custodian of his photos and colour transparencies. I hope to digitise these.

His professional working hours demanded intense concentration. It was a kind of “letting off steam” for him to use his free time abroad to visit as many culturally interesting places and events as he could cram into his work days in all these far-flung countries.

If a museum he might chance to find were unfortunately closed, he would find the key holder and by his charm and diplomacy be granted sole access out of hours.

I have witnessed for myself his cheeky refusal to take no for an answer. His ever active curiosity would draw him towards official notices such as, Private Keep Out, Closed, No Admittance, Authorised Persons Only. He regarded these as his personal and exclusive welcome signs.

My Dad, my Mother and I aged 6 or 7, were walking in Amsterdam on a Sunday. In those days, Sunday meant “closed”.

I remember standing in front of the imposing black double doors of the Rijksmuseum in the early morning, while my Father pressed the bell. One of the doors opened. A conversation took place in Dutch. The door closed behind us. We had the entire museum to ourselves.

My memory of this is strong, because we hadn’t had breakfast, I had no interest in my cavernous surroundings, I was simply a tired little boy. So I attached myself to one of my Father’s ankles (I can still see his trouser turnups!) and he dragged me gallantly along the highly polished parquet of the museum gallery floors!

One of my own such stories, inspired by my Father’s example, is of just such a fortuitous and memorable personal guided tour of a prehistoric grotto in the Dordogne. A long car journey brought me at 4 o’clock to the small ticket office of a Crystal Grotto with prehistoric drawings.

The man was closing up for the day. I told him why I had come so far to see his cave. Age 8, while my late father was chatting to him, I had sat on the knee of one of the four brothers, the original discoverers of the now world famous Grotte de Lascaux. Please, after a lifetime of waiting, would the Guardien kindly let me see this cave? He agreed, and he enjoined me not tell a soul!

In the early 1960’s, my father began to bring me gifts back from his travels. There were exotic musical instruments and vinyl LPs too. This is how I discovered and became fascinated by the strange sounds of classical music from the Middle East, West Africa, India, China, Indonesia, Japan and indigenous Australia.

One of the most appealing to me was Balinese Gamelan music. To my ears it is full of the natural sounds and rhythms that fill the air in a fauna and flora-rich rain forest. Birds, insects, rain, and stones clunking under waterfalls.

Gamelan orchestra

These sounds are woven into expressions of mystical animism embroidered with reverence by highly disciplined musicianship, refined by successive influences down dozens of centuries from a mix of old traditions from all around this south-east Asian land.

As a young teenager, these cultural novelties had a trickle effect on me, like the magic of light from stained glass windows shining in on me.

My curiosity led me to read up on Buddhism, and the Japanese practice of Zen.

From the time when I was a toddler, I have continued weaving patterns from the strong thread of the love of all living things growing ‘out there’ in the Big Green.

The Zen view opened a channel for my Green awareness.

My Father’s cheerful convictions that there is never any valid reason to take no for an answer, that in reality anything and everything is possible to you with the right way of thinking, using the right formulation of words, sank into me from early on.

I am sure now the grounding effect of these and other assimilated influences not only sculpted my life path, but on occasions actually helped to save my life.

Sing, my heart, the ways of the green

Sing, my heart, the ways of the green
My body is full of the greenways I have trodden.
Step-step on my own, my own green years.
All in the bright airs of earth.
So, sing my heart, sing me green,
Sorrows melt by the hedgerow,
When I make gentle ask.
Rise liquid heart, swell me green.
Oh, choose me a path, a green path for me.
Bring me a swish of grasses at my feet.
Float me out immense panoramas of comforting green.
My heart knows the ways of the green.
And my heart knows the way is green

~ and Love is present EveryNow

My signature poem – Journey

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This poem, Journey, is like my signature poem.

I composed it at the beginning of my eclosure after 66 years. It is still my truth. It is a guide which allows me to recognise the journey of others.

It is so thrilling. I try to describe how I balance the way I am the observer of my Journey (my Work, my Endeavour, my Passage, my unselfconscious ritual of the being I call me) against the unending flux of it.

One element of the wonder at this unfolding is the bright newness of it. Nothing is the same. It is newness without end. There is an inclination to want to find stability in a maelstrom of newness.

There is a need for a gathering of myself and of my balance as I walk out into a high gale. Please! Let it pause, and give me time to see what’s happening and where it is I’m going!

The visualisation of my new surroundings, though it may be confusing, is in many ways exactly what it is I am waking and walking into!

There no otherwhere from which to observe.

I am not going anywhere new. I am new. I am new EveryNow.

On the one hand, all that the me I call myself has been before is out of mind and out of date. On the other hand, where I am arriving can be felt by me with such intensity as to be overwhelming.

Overwhelm of beauty, of love, of wonder and gratitude, to name only a few.

That there is only positivity and that there is a perception of the moment as being a continuum of flux of always astonishing beauty is the truth about the journey.

If I take a measure, and hold up scepticism to the words I use, I can always touch into my heart. I see again the familiar orange glow, I hear the silent melodies, and my heart, unerring, redistributes love into balance.

This touching the heart is a way to feel the grace of knowingly being alive, and it is always a flip-flop of divine pleasure. It is the visceral warmth from a glance – my lover’s eyes meeting mine.

I do not give myself imaginings of stories in which I play any part. To do that would lift me outside of the EveryNow. A whole world of paper-thin blown-glass structures would shatter. And I would be nowhere to be seen.

If there is any purpose to my presence, so intensively alight, in the flux of it all, it is to be as translucent as I can be, so these things I write about are not shaded nor occulted in any way by my shining them.

Last, in trying to find imagery that fits, I visualised these icebergs.

Here is a vast planetary ocean where towering huge ice people, lighter than the liquid where they’ve been living, are emerging from the deep.

As they break surface, gigantic glittering waterfalls cascade from their shoulders.

Every enormous brilliantly shining face has mouth open in silent wonder at the sight of the deep from above, the perfect curvature of horizon, the sky, the sun, and the startling beauty of the emergences of others.

~ Love is present EveryNow

∞ Infinite? or Random? {∅}

Infinite? or Random? {∅}

Our consciousness has no fine tuning for detecting and savouring Random. We are – I am – a creature of EveryNow.

The appreciation of Random needs a running awareness of the things that element it, namely the past measured against some yardstick of the future. And both of these on astronomical timescales linked into an omniscience far beyond our human selves.

To say I am the product of random is rather sad. There is no call for the illusory sadness that comes from a fruitless search for meaning among extremely long odds.

Rather, oh my heart! Leap for joy at every in-breath that gives you the strength to leap.

I don’t call it my pulse. My heart keeps its own rhythm.

The measure of joy is heartbeat by heartbeat of my clock of blood.

Joy and sorrow are the engines one of the other. And both know no limits.

I choose infinity

The maelstrom of moments

The pain we describe is only pain when we ascribe words to it.

A blade of grass has no looking-glass. It is not green by reason of it absorbing all colours but green.
A grassblade is an abstraction of beauty in a pure material form. It is so and not further.
And so are you. And so we are all — we who are in life alive now, who used to be alive, and who will be alive no more.

And the maelstrom of moments in which our beauty dances

exists as EveryNow

Loss of the Drumbeat of life is but a delusion

“Loss of the Drumbeat of life” is but a delusion, a bewilderment caused by looking only at a drum beater and hearing no sound.
Humankind all too easily forgets to close the eyes and listen.
Listen to the Clock of Blood that transports life to our furthest smallest cells.
Our very cells call us to life!
Our heart hears the call.
Our breath answers the call.
We beat out the dance.

We are the dance.

Pick up the Drum and begin.
Over and over

*Flowering grace*

Parnassia grandifolia, or Largeleaf Grass of Parnassus

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Everything about this flower speaks of grace and sufficiency of design for purpose.
What looks to my eyes as a decorative trim, and is a sequence of shapes totally unique to this one individual, is likely to be an intrinsic part of its close relationship to its pollinators.
There is an extremely important message for me to examine in my aesthetic response to this living entity.
I ask Myself,
“How far can I travel along the journey of understanding about the quality of my response as an alive being to another alive ‘being’ ?”
I ask of Flower,
“What part of my sensibility is so strongly “contacted” by your shape, colour, patterning, texture, scent, movement in the air? And what part of me awakes and replies to your ‘touch’ ?”
And this is what I hear:
“My time alive
weighs exactly as much
as the lives I connect with.”
Therefore I kneel before the flower
who speaks so wisely of serene sufficiency.
Only connect!
All my waking time.
Only connect.
Connection will hold me
safe in the balance-scales
till the end my life.
~ Love is present EveryNow

A Guidance for Self-renewal.wav

In quiet Time and by yourself, you invite a gentle return to your own self. The gateway for you, in the guidance of these words, is your own hand. Come back to you. Let go. Remind yourself of and be refreshed by the magic that is to be found in the Space between you and your hand

♡ ☆ The Water Nymphs and the Goddess ☆ ♡

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The True Story of the Full Moon and the Carefree Naiads

[Photo – Ceregidion oak by Chris Adams]
Have you ever wondered at the tones of silent gloom to be found in the loneliest depths of the great oak forest?
They say the woodland pools of old often rippled in joyous babble, home to happy throngs of Naiads.
One cloudless summer night, weary from daylong dancing with dragonflies, all all asleep, the Naiads of the Round Lake dreamed a collective dream of honeysuckle and summer lightning.
The Solitary Goddess, travelling at the tip top of Her night sky, opened Her one white eye.
From Her heart of silver, She looked out upon the oak woods.
In a clearing, She saw it. She saw a fine and handsome fine Moon there below, shamelessly staring up at Her!
Quickly, quickly, before any churlish curl of cloud could form, She stooped a brilliant Moonbeam silently down and through the canopy of trees to fetch Him.
The bright arm of Moonbeam dipped deep, cupped the still waters where the Spirits of the Lake floated all in their mystery, and Moonbeam splashed them up and up, high over the lake shore, pell-mell up the valley’s wooded slope.
To this day, if you dare venture to walk so far into these so, oh so silent woods, you may see the bodies of the watery people clinging on where they were stranded.
Motionless as clinging ivy on the grey dry bark of the mute and ancient oaks.

The Wheel of Life

Listen to The Wheel of Life.wav by peterodactyl #np on #SoundCloud

The Wheel of Life is a most energetic circle. And it is brought from the glorious broad untrodden lanes of the Cosmos straight into the human scale of our earthly Standing Stone circles …

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Awareness is a flash of sunlight as I pass between trees

The surprise of the surprise surprises me in the deepest place of the me I call myself.
This sudden sensory spike, inescapable, melts into my innermost now.
It replaces immediately my previous aloofness, and in doing so, brings me into the small brilliant explosion of shattered disinterest.
This is how one glint of sunlight lights my living awareness.
O, these tiny awakenings
(ah my heart flip-flops)
are sufficient joy for a lifetime.
In a moment

Listen to the true story of the oak forest pool and the jealous goddess

♡ ☆ The Water Nymphs and the Goddess ☆ ♡

Photo – Ceregidion oak by Chris Adams

by peterodactyl on #SoundCloud

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