Gaze out from SoBo

Gaze out over the Channel

We live a few moments’ walk from the coast clifftop path at Southbourne-on-Sea. From here, look West, East and South over the long reaching fin of the north east Atlantic. Call it The Channel; call it La Manche.

The surface is forever breathing, changing, surprising, pleasing.

Today, it’s the teeming collective sea-lives I am visualising, as I stand sentinel, like a little lighthouse, and I open myself up once more with awe to my submariner senses.

I take my imagining under and my alter-image goes deep.

I am discoverable in the nakedness of the depths. I tense and relax inside of the almost limitless cubic salty kilometers.

I wander alongside the floating populations, the slow tribes, the single species. Giant extended families who move with one accord. And I too can float with the slowly, lowly, barely visible water-clouds of diatoms.

I strain a little to observe down towards the shallow floor, and I am entranced by the swaying dark slippery wavy forests of kelp. My flanks, my skin have become receptors of spatial data. As the pressing of the water increases, so the light diminishes.

My senses are minutely informed by the varied vibrations of frequencies within enormous bands of pressure. These extend from noises of top frothing waves to far abyss in realms of unimagined extent, ruled by silence and sacred, prehistoric lightlessness.

The shifts of temperature and pressure in these vast waters I compare, in my air-breather way, to the hourly, diurnal and seasonal colour changes of our familiar and welcome domed sunlit skies.

Let me salute the salty creatures, let me breathe a breath of gratitude for our brethren beasts, or great, or small, whose horizontal business of thriving alive counterbalances our own. We vertical humans are not alone!

[For the photo, my thanks to Zippo, loyal friend and guard to Heike Jenkins, DrumCircle leader extraordinaire]

How to help healing heal?

The body heals. This fact is a major cause for gratitude and wonder.

The body heals in noiseless self-contained seclusion at a separate pace from the abstract world of thought and the constant impatient fluctuation of the primitive mind.

The way the intellect and the mind try to organise or fix the everyday world they tend to operate in holds little or nothing that concerns the snail-like patience of the body’s enormous potential for healing.

And yet, the giant propulsion systems on which the body depends, and from which it draws its hidden powers of healing depend on the awareness of thought to be left, with a respectful distance, in peace to operate.

These wondrous hidden powers need the mind’s cooperation. They need the courage of self-encouragement and they have a ready appetite for offers of material and environmental support.

A tree throughout its lifetime is entirely dependent on this type of aware protection and nurture from the humans with whom it shares its immediate environment.

The trees and we people are vulnerable as a flickering candle flame. Both need active protection from disasters which arrive from ignorance, hubris, self-harm, unchecked violent impulses, even blind malice.

So, my friend, I am a student of the gentle art of living, balanced between desire and postponement of desire.

A good rule of thumb? Always favour love of the Now over love of the past or future.

And I do

Self-assembly self-reverential

Imagine

Walking on air

Can you imagine what it’s like to be acutely aware, out of long habitual repetition, aware of underlying larger reality most of the time? This can arise from the discipline of years of desiring to notice connections between material objects in terms of their historical constitution and their origins in archaeology, geology, astronomy, and cosmology.

If I so choose, I can become aware of the unified nature of everything, based on facts scientific. As I go on my way day by day, I will see the origins of all life on earth, even all the inanimate earth itself, share incontrovertible commonalities.

Only extrapolate the implications from the famous words in Joni Mitchell’s song, “We are stardust”. I do not place the concept on a shelf under a glass dome. It is one of my start points to bring my awareness to bear and connect any and every object with Life the Universe & Everything.

From a standing start, I used to assume, as a rule of thumb, that the life I occupy and live is “I” and “other”. In fact the concept of “me” as occupant of the life in me is a sad wrong-headed example of attempts to anthropomorphise domination of life.

No! Life lives me, period.

I believe, from my direct and continuing everyday experience, that ‘this life, which is superabundance of joy and love, has found an acceptance in my identity, and has assumed a proportion of my identity without my volition and with an attachment that never did nor ever will depend on my acceptance of it.’

In the old days, it used to work like this. Myself as an observer on one side, and on the other side, somehow independent of me, my senses take note of a scene, or of an object – animal, vegetable or mineral – and I, the observer, deal with it as a discreet entity, like a specimen under observation. This staid, well-trodden way of encountering and interracting with reality in my immediate surroundings is dualism: here is me and there is other.

This dualistic concept is pure human fabrication. It is a house of straw that will vanish in the next breeze. It so happens that there may seem to be too much work involved in unpicking the straws in this age-old house of straw. If so, finish your days on earth in the image of a player in a Role Playing Game. This is waste too catastrophic to contemplate.

On some level, to experience life at such intensity and with such unattached, deconstructed observation, is to experience an incandescent peace, sacred, fertile, wholly joyous. This non-dual, unconditional state explains why a passer-by could well hear me chuckle with no visible cause

You are to imagine my progress on any pavement that I am aware, with a physical reverberation, that my atoms move among collections and assemblages of atoms as energetic, as complex and as screaming-beautiful as all others, mine not excepted.

Apophaticism, or, You can’t eff the ineffable

Apophatic ecstacy

My EveryNow blog developed and began in 2018 from a life-changing outburst of heart pouring and opening for me in 2013.

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In 2013 I was utterly confused. There were no old reference points. Everything was unfamiliar, new and untried.

I knew it as a strange, safe and beautiful place to be. Talk about “Lost for Words”! I couldn’t explain it. At first I could not tell anybody what was happening, for the simple reason that I could find no English vocabulary to describe it.

After weeks and months, with help from Soul friends and formal research, I sussed ‘up’ from ‘down’!

So then, what did I understand? Not a thing! I still understood nothing. Now I realise there’s nothing to understand. It’s all about being.

Understanding is simply another unnecessary step to work around.

With conscious effort, I have reintegrated into this new present time. It is continuing newness. When I am in the flux of newness unending, it’s like being aware all of the time that this present presents as unique, precious, sacred.

This all-consuming belief is strengthened every moment I glance around, take a step, hear a sound, even notice a passing thought. If you notice me smile as you go, this is what lights my smile.

You’d think these experiences of utter newness might destabilise, interfere, be bothersome. I am here to tell you it’s like being an inquisitive youngster who’s strolling through and residing in a vast fairground of wonderland.

I don’t feel special or ‘other’. I am grateful to be me, and in awe of living through the sequences of life events which whizz me around my personal pin-table.

Close friends in these last ten years, Soul friends as I call them, inspire, power and light me on this journey.

And now here I am. I’m on the way to be nowhere.

No place could seem more desirable right now than nowhere. Oh, to float, alert, connected and intimately present nowhere, EveryNow!

Signs of the times

Eyes to see and ears to hear

See fires flood famine war earthquake

See injustice see violence see ugliness

See the sick the lonely the loved who are blind to love

See grief pain anguish disdain despair

See the hardly living the dying the bereft

See the street the dirt the broken the discards

See grasses parks backyards and weeds

See the birds beetles moths dragonflies

See your partner neighbour family friends

See all the signs of the times all of the time

See time see the time

with your ever loving eyes

~ Loving is present EveryNow

Wild spirits

Bucolic whimsy

Clearly, while this artistic representation is bucolic whimsy, there is in truth nothing whatsoever either fanciful or unreal about it.

Ingrained in your and my Original Wild consciousness are forested places where we had to experience arduous toil, and apprehension of dangers ranging from being injured, and losing our way in the dark, to attack by strangers or wild beasts.

In these same places there thrived entire populations of those non-human companions, who lived in and shared the forest seasons with us.

These wild spirits, with whose survival our own was bound together, soon became these same tamed and familiar furry and feathery creatures that we were given to anthropomorphise for courage, for continuity of knowledge and out of a deep pagan respect for the wildness which their small warm bodies seemed to incarnate alongside our own.

The picture I look at speaks to me about the continuity of millenia of human settlement, when word of mouth kept the rise and fall of time, precious know-how was assiduously handed down from one generation to another, long before books, clocks, towns.

“If we can stay in the heart, …

A friend mused, “If we can stay in the heart, I think every day would be beautiful.”

The wonderful thing is that we are there. The heart is our natural born home. It always was and will always be so. Here is where bliss is. Bliss of the most peaceful and unassuming and abundant kind.

Your heart and mine and all hearts share a portion of the love and peace from which arose all beings, animate, inanimate, sentient or not, and to which all are always returning.

If I get out from under my own feet, if I begin to truly see the laughably illusory nature of the images of the obstacles my mind chooses to scatter on my days and nights, then the trip-hazards in my personal Heads Up Display, the disparaging self-images my mind constructs, and which lie littering my way, all, all, all evaporates before my eyes.

If I learn about who I am, from others first, from serious academic study, and then by observing my own image in these reflections, I clear my unknowing, I open my mind to believe the best of myself.

It is my unknowing which invites mental constructions to explain the unknown, and so I am inclined to measure my worth by reference to explanations derived from socially accepted norms.

As I seek stability and comfort and refuge from these unknowns, I tend to label my fears as things external to my being, and not of my own making. By directing my attention on this naming, I am turning my back on the source of peace, harmony, balance, light and love. The source is in my own heart. It’s always ready to welcome me in like a faithful and passionate lover.

My heart releases an avalanche of self-esteem and self-confidence. It colours my days with my favourite colours. It shows up on demand like my bestie with a loving smile and with a gaze no vision of an angel can match

Life the Universe and All – yes but why?

Life the Universe & All – yes but why?

A small boy was alone on a bridle path on a warm day, when he picked up a stone from the dark earth at his feet and wondered, “Why is the stone a stone?”

The revelation of absolute questionability was such a powerful moment in my little life, that I can recall this chap in his scene in the minutest detail more than sixty years later.

From the time I began to reflect with self-awareness on the big questions of Life The Universe and So On, up till quite recently, it amused and inspired and blissed me to bump up against the great unknowables.

A recent BBC Radio 4 programme assembled a small group of Far Out Pure Mathematicians.

I had been trundling towards a belief that the entirety of Everything is Maths. The arise into form from formlessness? Why, look no further, it is maths!

Then it was one matter of fact comment by one erudite studio guest, and I am begorragh’d if I can recall who, which released me from a lifetime of amusing, inspiring, but essentially fruitless questing.

What the mathematician said showed that the study of mathematics in all its various disciplines is infinitely complex to the extent there can never be any one person or group for whom the limits of our comprehension can ever become visible. Or words to that effect.

With due respect to generations of questers, including the billions invested on CERN and the Hubble and the like, Life The Universe & Everything is in my view to be acknowledged as absolutely –  and I mean to use that word in its most pure abstract and controversial definition – forever unknowable.

I believe today that the joke is that there is no answer.

There never was and never will be any answer. Not only no answer to any of the great big questions, but the unattainability of any answer is the very locus, the epicenter, where the answer, or as it could be more accurately called, the resolution may reside, hidden in plain sight.

The painting of the Zen Circle is one way of approaching the unknowable. The equal and opposite way is the meditation on not painting the Zen Circle. One is incomplete when the other is not present.

This allows me to “get on with” Life. Just because I can put a “Why” at the front of a sentence, does not necessarily mean there has to be an answer. The Zen master’s ‘Koan’ is often the most intractable unanswerable, yet most revelatory of all possible questions.

What a sense of relief I feel when I shrug off the distraction of the perpetual scratchy “why?”

Now I can stride out and fully concentrate on the joyous juicy moments of this my shared life, and I can love to live it with ever greater depth and breadth.

~ ~ ~Love is present EveryNow

Joys of instant recall

Banded Demoiselle by the River Avon at Christchurch

A bejewelled Banded Demoiselle, aka Damselfly, pauses by the Avon riverside. This flash assisted shot is an ambition at long last realised 📸

I am proud to have taken this close-up of the Mayfly. Most of the photos I take out in the open, in the Big Green, I carry home together with a small cloud of instant recall. This is one of the main reasons I go “pic-nicking” in the first place.

For most photos, I can recapture my location, the sensations of weather, lighting and skies, my position facing the subject and the flavour and soundscape of my immediate surroundings.

More than these, I can often clearly recall, very many years later, my emotions and thoughts at the time of pressing the shutter. If I see and hear the “crackle of place” in my photo, and sometimes even enjoy the scent of the place, these are not gifts to be taken for granted.

The word Camera originally means Room. It’s a Time Machine for my wanderings. As “Doctor Who” says about the Tardis, “It’s bigger on the inside than in the outside”.

When I am at worship of the natural world, I am part of an ever deepening mystical experience, and I love to share far and wide. No picture of mine belongs to me after I share it. Anyone can share it for themselves.

The act of taking a photo of beauty brings me into Love’s Presence EveryNow

♡Meditation on the heart♡

♡Meditation on the heart♡

The physical universe has its own natural dignity in the general order of existence. That dignity deserves its own respect.

Reality is apparent through its magnificent spectrum of wavelengths.

Where reality ends and something else begins, possibly connected with quantum reality, or to do with the threshold of an important and blindingly beautiful stasis, is also a boundary which we humans are privileged to inhabit.

Nothing is black and white. Light, like love, is infinitely graduated.

Everything is just how it is.

I come back again and again to realising that the Way of Being of whatever we attend to is entire and sufficient to itself. It is enough. It is always and perpetually enough.

It is an expression of the way the universe loves its own. This is a love that holds and contains those gigantic energies science has been showing us.

Intense love quenches every last residue of fear. The potent awareness of such love is self sustaining. It feels like perpetual motion, eternally safe !

There is a final resting place for the restless mind.

That place is a place of safety unconstrained by and unconcerned by time. It is a not-there which is available, instantly whenever we as individuals need it.

Love is the answer

To which

No question exists

“Silence” On compulsory siesta after lunch at boarding school in 1959

I’m rereading recollections in the school magazine about compulsory siesta after lunch at Frensham Heights School (FH), Surrey. They trigger memories on conflicting timelines. The odd fact of my first and second years both spent in Group 4, also fudge my memory.

I always believed that on my arrival at school, I came into a dormitory at Bracken Hill. Now I think my career began at the Flottage, a dormitory block attached to the teaching block near the Main House. I begin to recollect walking back from there idly, or more often ambitiously and skillfully aiming kicks at the larger yellow stones on the rough gravelled drive to the Flottage.

Until the early ’60s, after lunch at Main House, all students would have to observe “Silence” lying down on metal frame, lightly sprung beds with their regulation issue thin woollen scarlet blanket. I once used a sewing needle to assess the thickness of the horsehair mattresses. Both ends of the needle protruded from each side. This traditional digestion time of Silence was a hangover from very early theories of how to nurture children.

I must have been there for some time, because I remember a summer infestation by a fascination of swarming tiny yellowish flies covered some of the east facing upper window panes. Housekeeping staff had to be despatched to get rid of them.

Michael Campbell, talented, charismatic, English and Drama teacher, was Housemaster. I had to be “spoken to”. He informed me that while my button sewing and sock darning skills were commendable, payments of a penny a time contravened School Rules.

My earliest memories of school are somewhat hidden from me by my own efforts to suppress feelings of brokenness and homesickness. Many at FH had arrived, placed in boarding school at a safe distance from parents’ problematic relationships and/or lifestyles. None spoke about their lives outside this school, which was set in large grounds, with phenomenal extensive views of rolling Surrey hills south towards Frensham Ponds, Elstead, Hindhead and beyond.

Some 200 pupils formed a cohesive community. It had and it still boasts various institutions, clubs and associations, social, sporting, and in music and the arts, which contributed to a sense of purpose and belonging. These developed into a springboard later helping some to establish an active profession. Lifelong enduring relationships formed. I recall my time at the school with high esteem and affection, just like many all down the years since the founding in 1925.

The UK system of schooling was never fertile ground for an inclusive, humanist, coeducational and progressive boarding regime. Others might fill me in on why the UK tends to prefer single-sex, disciplinarian and generally prescriptive or repressive styles of education.

One telling fact is the way British schools cling to strict adherence to expensive uniform dress codes. The thriving clothing manufacturing industry only helps to entrench this anachronistic and militartistic fad. Our counterpart educational establishments on mainland Europe get along well without our strictures of school uniform.

It was a complex task to schedule the Rota of classes, both the lessons and the “Optionals”.

It needs to be said that times were made available during the working week for students to choose to write their homework. These class times were known in Frensham Heights as “Optionals”. It was a point of pride for us that we were given the freedom to choose which set homework we worked on, in the se “Optional” study times. Rather like adults at University, we were trusted with the responsibility to calculate best use of our free study time in order to accompllsh our tasks.

This was a highly commendable and adult way of learning the skills of self-guided work. Unfortunately, my over-imaginative, free-spirited mind was seriously lacking in self-discipline. I would use these Optionals to daydream, doodle, or later on, to compose love poems.

Inevitably, I would fall behind the deadline for submitting the homework. It would morph into a looming terror, similar to a living nightmare, a sort of real-life Pit And The Pendulum story by Edgar Allan Poe. I learned to use the dead of night to save myself from the dread consequences of shameful failure to submit my homework. This cycle of frozen inaction followed by intense bursts of emergency action was to dog me all my working life.

A quarter of a century before Microsoft Spreadsheets made light work of certain complicated clerical tasks, a hapless member of the teaching staff had to curtail summer holidays and spend three full days before the start of term writing out on a grid by hand the Lessons Rota and allocating the new intake into dormitories.

The Term Lessons Rota was a neat chart displayed under glass in a big hardwood frame for all to refer to (often in a tearing hurry) on a wall near the History room in the Teaching Block.

For some reason, my name had been missed out on the list of beds for my Group 4 in Bracken Hill in September 1959. Maybe that’s why I was placed to begin with in the Flottage.

Perhaps it was in Spring term in 1960, that I found myself transferred to Bracken Hill, temporarily billeted on a bunk bed (same thin matresses and pillarbox red blankets) along with a bunch of Group Sixers.

These boys, four years my senior, were bigger than my peers physically, and they would lumber around, in the way adult persons are more inclined to locomote, reserved in thought, rather than to caper, hop skip or jump like lambs.

In the bunk bed above me slept arguably the most eccentric among all the FH eccentrics of that time – Nicky Mason. It was remarkable to me that after lights out, neither words nor movement came from my upper bunk bedfellow.

I joined a few boys in the basement Jazz Club. We’d generously been given the use of the groundman’s former potting shed, under a room opposite the Flottage study block.

My instrument was a makeshift bass. It was an old thin plywood cube – a Tea Chest, all its edges reinforced with metal. A length of sisal was inserted in a hole pierced in the centre of one face. The other end was tied to an old broomstick. By tensioning the broomstick perched near the edge, I could pluck at the sisal and the Tea Chest would provide the semblance of a rhythmic bass tone backing.

We each played our chosen instruments. There was a genuine vintage glass Washboard, a guitar, a harmonica and Nick Mason’s clarinet. We sang loudly and played along to Skiffle favourites.

Hang Down Your Head Tom Dooley, When The Saints Go Marching In, Sinner Man, The Train I Ride Is Twenty-one Coaches Long. We’d improvise bawdy versions of She’ll Be Coming Round the Mountain.

Nick studied music, the violin, under the gentle and formal instruction of Mr Teddy Rice. That amiable and placid white-haired man, was not in favour of Nick accompanying us in the Jazz Club playing his clarinet.

Fifty-four years later, retired in Bournemouth where I now live out my retirement, I developed my own group DrumJam, with Djembé drummers, percussionists and other instrumentalists.

No one there present could have had any prescience of Pink Floyd to come. Nick had interests in musicians like Jelly Roll Morton, who were not simply not mainstream, but utterly unheard of, which further set him apart from the rest of us.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nick_Mason But that’s another story.

Of course, we knew the words and tunes from the raucous singalongs which broke out spontaneously among us on occasional school coach outings to distant events, sporting or cultural.

I now realise that the majority of Pink Floyd albums were produced during my early twenties, while I was shuttered off in psychiatric hospitals or medicated to numbness. I have huge empty spaces in me which so many of my peer group lived through and remember as The Sixties.

Among all the Frenshamians who were naturally “different”, Nick was on another planet. His speaking voice was in the last stages of breaking.

Everything about Nick Mason was above. He was taller than average, and loped his lanky frame along apparently preoccupied with quantities unknowable.

He came to Morning Talk (school assembly) one day in early February 1960, wearing a black armband on his regulation green Harris Tweed jacket with slubs. Group Four onwards could, up to a point, interpret our own self-expression regarding the wearing of uniform. Only Day Pupils had no choice. Nick, a boarder like us, looked uniquely formal in wearing his green tweed jacket.

Outside the Mummery, a newly converted teaching classroom, I plucked up courage to stop him and ask who he was wearing the armband for.

Nick looked in a downwards direction towards me. I can hear it even today, he said in a flat tone, “Buddy Holly’s dead”. There was nothing more to be said. I got a sense of how important music was to him.

I learned while writing this, that the tragic air crash incident became known as The Day The Music Died, after Don McLean.

🌱See it, sing it, dance it❤️

Courage !

🌱 See it, sing it, dance it with courage ♥️

The peace I have arrived at, the peace that has arrived in me, that has ‘found’ me will not leave me for reasons of illness or misery.

Our origin is love. Our hearts are constituted out of pure love.

I came to this real understanding age 67, and I recognise this is peace that bypasses understanding.

Before I had awareness, love gave my conscious being form, much as a flame gives a candle purpose. I am now the guardian of my flame which I nourish and care for by the simple act of breathing!

Yes, all the time it feels fragile, the same way the feeling of ‘being in love’ is more delicate than any butterfly.

My experience of aliveness, though blissful, is constantly in a state of flux, connected to everything by vast rhythms and tides to places so far out of sight as to be unimaginable.

So when I try to define my life’s force in words, or dance, or music, it does not resist me, neither can it escape me, because it is me.

Oh! And it can sometimes turn towards me and light me with a smile of a beautiful person whose gaze I meet, and I am melted clean.

It may feel fragile, but fragile it is not! In everyday reality this peace I know in my heart and mind is as strong and as permanently present as gravity.

The peace is alive inside.

It is inextinguishable, simply because love is inextinguishable, and we are love.

Every

single one of us

is Love

always

Every. Single. One

~ Love is present EveryNow

Happy cycling EveryNow ~

One of the most valuable things about bicycle riding is that it gives masses of personal choice.

The range of choice is vast.

I can decide how carefully I oil, clean and maintain my bike. I can decide what clothing and additional gear to use for the road and weather conditions.

When to begin, 55 me, only me.

What most excites and occupies my attention, and hardly applies at all to everyday routine, is STAYING ALIVE.

When I am downed and I die playing a computer game, I regenerate and continue on carefree for as long as I like.

When out riding, I actively choose to live to ride another day.

Every metre of the way is the object of highly pleasurable, intense, tunnel vision concentration.

What is my wheel doing in relation to my chosen line of travel? What decisions do I need to make in various distance and time frames based on anticipatory riding? What are other highway users doing? More to the point, what are they likely to be doing up to and beyond normal expectations, which might affect what my bike and I are and will be doing?

My version of anticipatory riding imagines the scene of my own violent death every few metres. What I do right now involves my scanning all possible scenarios and strategies, from ordinary to extreme, to avoid getting snared in such a grisly disaster.

I will usually engage in this mental theatre of horrors before I saddle up. This is how I install and set up my personal life assurance policy for the trip ahead. Even if the weather is mild, I will wear something warm to help delay the onset of shock while lying in the road till help arrives.

Oh, and for life savers, I use my referee’s whistle dangling from my crash helmet. It clears traffic and pedestrians out of my path.

I remember to cast my Look Of Life. This vital head-turn reminds the driver behind that a person is in their controlled area.

And as I go, I paint on my face an expression that reads, “Heavily Armoured No Compromise”.

https://www.godchecker.com/indonesian-mythology/BATARA-KALA/

BATARA KALA

GAME ON! 👀 PLAY ON!

GAME ON! 👀 PLAY ON!

Look out for signs of the return of Springtime in your mind!

I ask myself,
“What are my own signs of Spring?”

In my case, on the threshold of seven and seventy, I see a different way to view my crumbling. At this period, when I need to pay more attention to my body signalling it needs my help, and sometimes on a daily basis, I do find my old body is asking for favours and easements. These stop signs show me as always that everything is in a state of change.

These days, I have a clear choice. More choices open up to me, when I am viewing my thoughts the way I see clouds float by reflected in a river. Fewer choices are within reach, when I forget to remember emotional clouds aren’t made of concrete!

Do I fret and become impatient?

Fretting and impatience are markers of futile attention to detail in the past or the future. The time I take out to indulge in anxious thoughts or to stamp my foot in impatience, is time wasted. Not only is time-wasting a serious misuse of what I have, I don’t have nearly as much of it left to fritter away!

Or do I welcome these claims on my time?

Do I treat them as new unlived lessons to learn, and new prompts to teach me and guide me towards taking more interested and compassionate care of myself? At random intervals, my body returns unexpected sensations of pain. It signals that it’s no longer instantly and uncomplainingly able to obey my brain’s motor impulses.

All this newness I can take as a hark back to the earlier, far more surprising, and deeply delicious newness which enveloped me like a shining cloud back in the Year of my Life 2013. That is what I prefer to choose to be reminded of.

Ageing is a whole new ball game!
Play on!

How many is one?

All one

How many is one? Or say it like this, what’s the colour of one?

We all are wholly broken entities, we walk from here to there asking to be whole, wanting to construct wellness from our constituent undone parts, disfunctional, darkly dirty and lost like smoke looking for the fire of its origins.

The only reason we know we are entities is because we began as Ones. Our identity became conscious in a blaze of sound, colour, scent and touch at birth.

We were united with the sensory input with which we were saturated in such a way that we were at first unable to make any distinction between us and the world of senses we were sensing.

Later on came intimations of duality. We got the idea, again through first hand experience,

“I am not what that is”.

“I am I and that is not I. It is Other”.

Our oneness is conscious of experience as suffering or joy – hunger or satiety. By such terms, our oneness is all about polarities of intensity.

As adults, we are wracked by our acquired trauma or injury. We are damaged by our inability to make sense of episodes of damage sustained we cannot or wish not to recall.

Our longing for peace, love and happiness relates to our selves as newborn bundles of love. That was when we were blissfully undamaged, unaware of agencies capable of our damage or destruction.

As adults we spend time and devote our energy to achieving that experience of blissful oneness that was ours at the time of our birth.

In truth, we are all still purest innocent oneness. It is that so much has happened in the years since birth, we have stopped reminding ourselves of our innate purity.

Our notions of duality and the way we so readily devote much attention to our ability, albeit limited, to grasp at, acquire or alter our perception of the world of Other, these serve to remove our attention from the intense heat of welcome, magic and mystery to be found in our molten core – our innate oneness.

If we keep hold of the image we still continue as whole and clear, pure and clean as the day we were born, we will have hope and faith, those fabulous flammable fuels which will power us on our common goal, the journey back to wholeness, Oneness.

We can bring back to our heart and mind the Oneness of our origin, our common origin which indivisibly composed us from birth. For some it is easy. For most it is a lifetime’s labour. For an unfortunate few, death will end their search before they even get a tiny glimpse of eternal love.

Part of what has sustained me, repaired me, enlarged and enriched my life has been about acquiring the skills and tools for recognising the value and importance of self-healing. Healing facilitates and increases my ability to recognise and manage my own well-being. These things in general hold a significance in the living of life that is close to sacred. This form of healing compassion has been recognised as sacred throughout human history.

My journey is coming into the realisation that I only will grow and thrive in direct proportion to how much I can help others in their journeys of growth and self-love, even if I can do so only by not standing in their way.

Becoming who we are

Intergalactic interminglings

This pretty village of “Old” Alresford is where the opening scenes might plausibly have been set in the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, on the infamous occasion of the beaurocratic and heartless Demolition of the Planet to make way for the hyperspace bypass.

… Alresford revisited …

Might have, I say, but were not. This was because of the Paraverse Holo in which Alresford and its environs continue to float in Tranquil Stability force-fields, thanks to the zealous efforts of the Sapient Pigeons, whose keen eye for a quick buck is the talk of the Western Spiral Arm virtual business community.

The Goodly Pigeons’ technical grip on the transcendental reality equations prevailing hereabouts preordained that this little local continuum remain untouched.

“For all eternity”, exactly as it says in the brochure.

The curiosity of visitors on foot like myself is sparked by the too, too obvious discontiguity between the near feudal bucolic population remnants in this “Hampshire” village; the curious depth of quiescent somnolescence exhibited by the oh-so-pretty waterfowl; and the incomprehensibly uncontrived, open-ended bonhomie of such folk as the sausage and tomato sauce sandwich dispensing staff at the Caff in West Street.

These last, and all their kith, live in perfect ignorance of, and side by side with the overlord holiday lets of the supermegarich retired Alien Galactic Orchestrators.

The Orchestrators were sold on the charms of this aboriginal “Hampshire” reservation. By and large, most migrated here from Hoag’s Object in Serpens constellation in our C15th and C16th.

Naturally, there has been a great deal of nesting activity with the indigenous populace over a period of time…

Payment of debt

Where I lay my table

There is an indebtedness that arises in me from the recognition of successive blessings entering the arena of my life.

Any responsible and compassionate response to privileged heightened awareness of life in its very glory and in its quirky contrariness ought to be forged into a legacy for sharing.

My repayment of what I owe is on a simple table in the arena. It is covered by a pale cloth. It is set with humility. And the rich rare spices I am invited to choose when cooking the dish of gratitude taste as sharp as the coming in of death at my little life’s end.

What form this takes is all the choice I have.

~ Love is present EveryNow

Nearer, my Self, to Thee

This dancing icon is me. I first painted it on a T-shirt as seen here, in 2014. This solo flame sky riding dancer centaur is an image of my own soul.

From that time on, I have dedicated myself to a search for this genii, who seems to have just been summoned from a mythical magic lamp.

As these ten years processed by from the start of 2013, the Year of My Life, I accelerated and honed my daily journaling skills. The net result has been “Closer to thee my Self”.

My Soul reflection and I stand confident and clear cut in my sacred space, such that the flame dancer now answers to my call, and shows up with outrageous intimacy on my call

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you
🕉️

Doom and global extinction

This is a bit on the heavy side. Does this mean I do “dare to eat a peach?”. Am I the toad blinking, discovered after a casual kick at some pleasantly rounded stone on the grassy verge?

For years I hear my inner chat tending more and more towards the cynical. Wars, oligarchs, mindless crushers of opposition, economic meltdowns, global warming, these are fortunately not mine to fret over as I start to make plans for a low-key 77th birthday party.

I feel sorry for my children. The course of their lives may well be changed or even diverted by the negative effects of these most modern and also ancient of macro-scale trends.

I often go to browse www.phys.org because it is a reliable, peer-reviewed source of fact and cutting edge news about the highest levels of noble endeavour.

The Princeton University research story about a near future with back to back hurricanes flipped my mind.

Enough is enough. I am not to be counted as another minor decorative sideshow on Social Media. Or if I am, then I want it to be known I have an unfashionable, deeply cynical stance on what the flickering years of my life will hold in store for me and my kind.

My colours are nailed to the mast. Love is all, yes, but I won’t pretend I don’t believe the End is Nigh. The unkempt, often raggedy Nigh Sayers on their soapboxes at Speakers Corner, London, never seemed credible to me, because of their parochial concerns.

My message is all about a radically new world order. My message is full of old man’s ‘I know it all and better than you’. I have at my disposal a heap of handy facts and ready-made actions which already have the stamp of incontrovertible fact, mass approval and therefore of authority.

As before, I plan to man my little EveryNow sideshow, with it’s frilly word banners and scrupulously well-chosen colour schemes. At the same time, I will be bold to go banging on like any old, mad, random merchant of doom.

I will exploit the idea of unexploded doom lying side by side with the rippling sidereal Daoist messages of universal beauty, manifesting as arising from and recycling back again through unbounded power.

I avow that through the adoption and harnessing of this same power Humanity Reunited (no! Not the football team) can realise planetary survival and salvation by mass actions bent to a brand new global common purpose.

A Princeton University study shows that areas along the US East Coast and Gulf Coast will likely suffer more intense damaging storms back to back due to Global Warming.

https://phys.org/news/2023-02-bad-climate-threat-back-to-back-hurricanes.html

S. O. S . . . . . . S. O. S . . . . . . S. O. S.

_ The purpose of politics, industry and the individual today is to reconfigure global humanity, so that all assets and all means of all peoples are diverted to work in unity of purpose to bring Global Warming under control.

_ The time is past due that we can continue to afford the luxury of self-centered pretty squabbles. Petty squabbles to be abandoned include wars, military confrontations, political rivalries with no reference to imminent catastrophic environmental degredation and destruction, giant costly engineering projects, space exploration, traditional competitive industries which squander their time, their material and human resources in the manufacture of goods of duplicate functionality.

_ All generations of humanity are at risk of extinction in a world where we cannot grow food, find drinking water, or live in structures safe from devastation by extremes of weather. We know it will be so, if we continue to ignore the bigger obvious picture of humanity in its entirety dying off on a planet we ourselves will have made uninhabitable, first through our actions, and then, tragically, through our lack of united remedial actions. ___”