What is

Delight is up side down side inside and out.
💠I am a time traveller🔷

💠 I am a time traveller 🔷
I know that the stirrings in me which crises cause are like clear waters suddenly made muddy. I know the dread of that vanished transparent calm where all was clear and simple to see.
The plateau of my heart’s ease, where grass is green, and no wind ruffles, is a gift to be accepted. The calm of uneventful days is like the sunshine on an airborne jet – I trust revolutions of power beyond my ken are churning on the inside, keeping me safe.
I accept the days of “nothing doing” are like when I neck the first drink of cool water in the morning. I absorb bright colourless refreshment in the certainty it will reach into my darkest roots.
But I also know to stand back from insisting to myself that I must thrash out sense and meaning out of turbulent emotions. Danger of death inside, or at the very least, the drear drag of continuing ignorance, is the reward for fruitless fight with my own shadows.
I have learned that the swirl of sediment that now blinds my view of where I am going is composed of mysterious particles!
These are the smashed up, mashed up micro fragments of old certainties.
I do not tread them into the dirt. They are more valuable than gold dust, more alive than my own breath, because, unlike mud which petrifies into rock on settling, I know they will recrystallise into brand new beauty.
My road which was secure is now blazing into a lava flow. My tears explode as they fall! My past mistaken faith in my own limited abilities have taught me to give up my Quixotic tilting at mental windmills. I trust that faith and unconditional hope in compassionate powers far stronger than any of my own will arrive, soothe me, and build my new spiritual bones.
I know I will give myself the gift of time, waiting in faith and trust. My roots are active, though I neither hear nor see the least motion.
This is how trees await Spring, and birds the Sunrise.
I will have stood aside and observed the swirls of pain in my chest. I will have felt them retch up my throat. I will have committed to memory the dried tears I see on my own face.
And, at the end of all of this, I will see walking towards me, with the magical mutual smiles of recognition spreading over both our faces, myself and I, as we fall into an embrace for the first time
~ Love is present EveryNow
Giggle
Email to a new Friend about to go travelling…

It’s Full Moon.
Where we come from is largely known to both of us solely from the personal presence shown by one to the other.
It is a transparently good place or I should not be writing you this.
The direction where we are going is a mutually encouraged movement which has all of the same attributes as those of a grand meal – expectation of savours, many unknown – but without any sense of fear or alienation.
Cleave to your journey, O pal.
Stay alert, record and share, discuss and digest.
Be open, humble, respectful of all you meet, judge none, avoid none, give full attention.
The butterfly effect operates only at such a distance that it is out of sight. Your smile is seen. You move on. That life-affirming energy aroused by your smile may engender springs of hope in individuals, families, cities, entire populations which you cannot and need not understand.
All you need to understand is that you have immense latent power. It is the power of choice to smile.
Turn away only from those whose minds have diverted far from life’s glory that they see only negation and fear. You do not need to be smeared, in mind, heart nor body.
Only see the myriad tiny things, because in the end our lives are upright and we survive only because we are intimately and eternally supported by the microcosm of everyday sublime simple beauty.
Never ever pass up the chance to giggle.
With love
As ever
What is there?

What is there
between
the in-breath and the outbreath?
Nothing to do
and
all the time in the world
to do it
~Love is present EveryNow
My heart did beat with the same exquisite archeologist’s excitement

We unearthed broken stems of old white clay tobacco pipes, and decorative opaline glass shards.
↪️ 📵 B ⚠️ D 🚫 ↩️
BAD NEWS

Odd, isn’t it?
The swaying grasses,
the colours of flowers,
the rustling bushes,
the upgrowing trees,
all of the busy tiny creatures,
those birds, these bees 💚
Absolutely none have been stilled
by The Bad News!
If I want to feel freedom’s wild kisses,
if I truly want to snuggle close
to my original self,
I walk out 💚
I walk far out of reach of the news…
and as I go, I cast smiles and catch smiles 💚
Smile! This is the Big Green
The news about all our human doings
Is of no consequence whatsoever
to the birds and the beetles 💚
Their headline news, their editorial,
all the way down to the stop press,
is about the ecology
right and left
seen and unseen 💚
I am always welcomed in the Big Green
to observe with love and respect
the sweetly earnest business of survival 💚
Here calm runs up to me,
from my left,
from my right,
to hold me by my hands 💚
~ Love is present EveryNow ~
a happy ripple in a continuum of life

My state is open and aware and quiet.
The self I call “I” is a flat calm transparent natural boundary. Clear water is deep down, air is deep up.
The surface is almost colourless, without ripple or feature. It extends without horizon, but never leaves my sight.
In such a state I can ride and stay in balance during the time I am presented in the here and now with thoughts, feelings, distractions and discomfort.
Here, from my surface I offer this.
It is through my extraordinary journey of unanticipated heart awakening, around the time I began the regular practice of Biodanza in February 2013, that I know I can fully access healing. That, together with other understandings related to identification of ancient hurts and the resolution of previously unrecognised confusions, have granted my awareness of myself the opportunity of expansion and room in which to expand.
As I become self-aware, aware of the sanctity of the gift of life being lived and experienced more and more abundantly, so in equal measure I value the gift of life in relation to other living sentient beings.
What comes from living in such a new and richly jewelled life is a greater gratitude than I have ever known. It has far reaching implications on my remaining days of life. It is the ever-growing understanding that my life is not a discrete occurrence only in me. I am a pixel of humanity, and life is living through all things and beings, sentient and not sentient.
I am a happy ripple in a continuum of life. Life lives me as I live life.
Here’s the thing… Nothing has changed! Everything is utterly different and constantly completely new! The newness is “EveryNow”.
I begin. My journey of exploration and discovery begins all over again from the very start every moment. Nothing existed in the previous instant of this awareness of existence to guide me to where I am. At any given moment, I look forward with barely containable excitement to the certainty of discoveries in the moment following.
I think of it like this. For the first fifty years I had been “Living to Love”, which is decorous, pretty, even beautiful, but it is an existence limited by inconsequential superficiality.
As my heart awakes and presents its face towards me to greet me, my heart starts “Loving to Live”.
This is the wholesome, plain and simple adoption of the richly textured reality of here and now, of “EveryNow”.
I am no longer secreted away in a place of safety of my own elaborate construction, but I go shining with gratitude and wonder at the mere fact of being vital and alive.
This is a state of being which is totally raw, exposed and vulnerable, but simultaneously full of living courage, and naked certainty.
Unencumbered by fear, my state of being can freely develop in its self-expression in the knowledge that it has its permanent residence in the secure environment of the heart’s pure and spectacular peace.
We are all capable of healing.
It’s about trusting love to come into close contact inside my most personal sacred space, and knowing that there, in that serene place of peace, I can heal.
We all just can
~ Love is present EveryNow
Moon-grace come !
Full Moon – harbinger over my seaside home village – shows the way to abundant forgiveness,
plain truths of heart’s love,
desire,
and the plenishments of the fruit of gratitude.
Full Moon – risen so many times over my seaside home village – lights up every thing.
Her rays flume with a nameless unearthly dignified contact…
extra Awe-dinary’
Surfeit? Surf it!

Surfeit? Surf it!
“The greatest difficulty
is the mental resistance
to things that arise,
and the underlying assumption
that they should not.” ~ Eckhart Tolle
… ° …
One of the ever-present sweetnesses available to us is to cast a compassionate glance towards the chaotic and the frenetic and the inexplicable.
Then to look inwards at the heart’s own orderly equanimity and to see no divide, no boundary, but a standing-wave, a crest of peace.
❤️
There is no peace

There is no peace.
Peace is living us in our heart’s love EveryNow
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From Breath to Love

From Breath to Love – A guided meditation
TUESDAY 25th SEPTEMBER was the monthly Breathwork session “From Breath to Love – Conscious Breathing Circle” held by Karolina Mikulicz here in our home town.
When I arrived, I was the only one attending! So we agreed to have a 1-2-1 session.
An Angel asked a Ghost

An Angel
Who had
Never
Been in love
Asked a Ghost
Who had,
“What was it like?”
The Ghost said,
“Like being in life”
Dismal

Dismal Southbourne
The heat of summer,
the dazzle have done a runner.
The vacant hands of after dusk seem to say,
Turn away.
But in this street,
with autumn near and summer far,
Mine eyes see a glimpse of Shangri-la
Bless the odd…

… for they are mirrors to reality EveryNow
*The rest is history*

RIVER ~ ’74 & ’14

Some centuries ago near Tollard Royal

“Dull sublunary lovers’ love…” from The Kiss, by John Donne
This tree has begun to take root with me.
I’d taken some wrong turns on my solo hike. I began to find my bearings again. I was about a mile from a pretty stone-built village with a church, bus shelter and a public phone, where I’d agreed to rendezvous with a man at the end of his day’s golf at Tollard Royal for a lift back to the Compasses Inn, Tisbury. It was in 2013.
Following my nose, not any path, I descended from a ridge. I called to a young man seated in the yard of a huge farmhouse, and I asked the way to the village. He was well spoken. The impressive building was clearly centuries old.
I thanked him and about a half mile further and 50 yards off and to the left of the single track tree-lined lane stood the majestic tree in this photo.
The sense of its obvious undamaged longevity, its benign warmth and silent fertility, made me direct all of my attention to it. The afternoon was a hot one. A mare and her foal were standing in the shade nearby.
I caught something of its own ancient yet fresh pleasure at being safe and well for so very long in this particular place.
Five years later, I took the time to scrutinise Google Maps. I used Terrain and Satellite view on my smartphone. I followed remembered landmarks, beginning with the golf course near Tollard Royal, where my lift was coming from.
With the confirmation of Street View, and recall of the scenes I had paused to photograph in the little village, in under an hour I had located my tree!
It stands halfway between Berwick St John and the ancient farmhouse, which sits at the foot of a ridge – part of a watershed valley – at the end of Woodland Lane.
I cannot forget the friendliness I felt during the short time we were in each other’s company.
I long to say hallo again. Now I know I can. The round trip by bus from Bournemouth will take only half a day.
… … …
Here on a sunny day, 25 Feb, five-and-a-half years later, the story continues…
The weather and the auguries are propitious for undertaking the public transport journey.
I got off the bus at 2:30 on this Monday in the charming little village of Berwick St John, whose pub, the Talbot, is unfortunately closed Mondays.
The bus timetable allows three hours to find and re-friend my tree, some ten minutes walk away.
Alas, poor tree. Last year’s winter blasted and blew down its majestic crown. I look on reluctant to believe this is the same tree.
We all react to dramatic news with a spasm of disbelief. I see no limbs on the grass flood plain, no branch litter. With care the estate workers have removed them all. It is beyond doubt my tree, or its remnant, that is marking time here now.
We spend a while keening together. All is change.
I climb two fences, and make my way uphill to a circle of ancient beeches standing out on top of perhaps a man-made tumulus.
Here is a new bench, and surprisingly an unmarked, freshly dug grave. The occupant has a panoramic view over his estate.
I learn later, from “Pontibus”, my impeccably courteous lift, a teacher of Latin to ecclesiastics hereabouts, that the large vase of white lilies is Anka Dineley’s tribute to her beloved husband, Peter, recently deceased.
Indeed, after admiring the view for a short while from the heights of this sacred grove – surely it is a tumulus – I meet Widow Dineley. She has climbed here to tend to the grave, and we shared a moment of respect for the dead.
Among the photos I took on this Sun-filled early spring day, full of the signs of returning life, was one of the ground at my feet near this grave.
Shotgun cartridges, green and red, were trodden into the ground by those who had come here to gain the advantage of height against their prey.
Later that day I came to see the whole picture. This day of presence in solitude and solitary witness showed to me yet again both strident and subtle signs of the changes in every place I tread, in every horizon’s direction I am drawn to by my seven decades of gazing.
With the sun going down, I hitch-hiked the sparse traffic in both directions, rather than wait more than an hour for the last bus to Salisbury.
Along the dozen miles to Nunton, my driver and I exchanged brief lives in the delicate, age-old customary codes of respect between travelling strangers.
I was told the farm and its large estate lands I had stumbled across so long ago was owned by Francis and Peter Dinely, long-time important actors in this country stage. Peter, a member of this old, respected land-owning family, is now mourned by his widow.
The tree is toppled, reduced all suddenly from its former nobility by the winds of time.
The chalk downland landscape here, with its life-cycle complement of trees, boundary stones, archeology of the Mesolithic, Neolithic and Bronze Ages, carries its prehistoric ramparts and funerary mounds like music notes scored on the earth.
Slower than a giant’s breath, the notes are being rearranged, muted, and reconstructed by the decades.
The stone boxes people live in are changing season by season, as the new inhabitants sing the old songs according to melodies unrecognisable to those at rest under their hallowed ground.
My tree friend is still my friend. We will remain linked. Our separate life cycles are forever united.
We are both a little more blasted. We have changed together. These felled angels are not to be pitied, they do not look to us to possess a life they do not own.
This land echoes to the orchestration of universal country sounds familiar to every ancestor. The soundscape of humility and gratitude for living – cawing crows, piping robins, wildfowl screech, siffle of hovering hawk.
What we share in common, with tacit friendliness my tree and I, is the sacred sweet precession – the continuum of change.
~ Love is present EveryNow
A simple time traveller

My old road will rearrange and recrystallise to recreate – like resolidified titanium – my new spiritual bones.